When you feel fat and need a game plan.

Hi.  My name's Morgan.  I'm insecure about my body.  I'm here to help myself and you figure out what to do to become comfortable with yourself.  I feel overweight.  I am an average weight. I am an average height.  But I really, really hate my body.  For a while I was comfortable with myself, but now I've fallen straight back into the hole that is self hatred.  I hate my appearance to be honest with you.  I don't mind being curvy, but being fat is something that I can't handle for myself.  I don't care if someone else is overweight, but I can't be nice to myself when I look fat.  People beg me not to use that word.  "Fat".  It's "offensive", "rude", "inconsiderate".  Well guess what.  The definition of "fat" is (adjective)  '''(of a person or animal) having a large amount of excess flesh."  It is a term that I don't think I would use as a derogatory definition.  But I would use it to describe a person or myself who I perceive as largely proportioned.  My plan is to go on a diet starting on Monday July 4'th.  A week exactly before cheer season starts!   

•  I am not going to eat added or processed sugar, natural sugar in fruit is A-OK.   
• No processed foods.  
• No fried foods.
• 30 Minute Core workout Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. 
• 30 Minute Cardio workout Tuesdays and Thursdays.
• 30 Minute Yoga Saturdays and Sundays.
• Shakeology for dinner. (This is completely safe, and I am not starving myself, shakeology is very healthy and has all the nutrients that a person needs in a day.)

This diet is completely safe for me, modify workouts to 10 or 15 minutes in the beginning if you are just starting out.  Remember:

• Sugar will pack on the pounds (I am a past sugar addict, and one week with no sugar worked wonders for my body, but you have to continue no sugar to keep the pounds off.)
• Eat when you are hungry, but eat slowly so that your body can tell you when you're full (You won't notice how full you feel if you eat quickly.)
• Push yourself to meet your goals (Unless they're unreasonable and bad for your body.)
• DO NOT STARVE YOURSELF> (This will slow your metabolism and you'll become heavier as your body will react to this as starvation, and in order to survive you need a healthy amount of food.)
• DO NOT PURGE> (This will destroy your teeth, burn your esophagus, destroy your digestive system, and is overall horrible for your body.  And laxatives will just basically destroy your body.) 
• Stay positive and keep at it!  Consistency will keep the extra pounds off and continue to burn the calories!
• You are beautiful no matter what you look like.

Love you guys!
XOXOXO
-Morgan 

A letter to myself.

Why do I feel this uncontrollable hatred for you?  Why do I hate the way look?  The way you sound?  The way you laugh?  The way you make horrible jokes?  The way you're so weak?  The way you let yourself down all the time?  I hate you.  I hate you.  I hate you.  How did you become this?  You disgust me.  You are an embarrassment.  You are so ignorant.  You don't care about what you've become, or maybe you do and simply do not mind it.  You are me.  I am you.  We are the same.  So why do I hate you so much?  You are a horrible person.  You hurt the ones that you swore you loved.  You broke the ones who adored you.  You broke them.  You killed them, or at least their soul.  They've broken because of you.  And you have already moved forward.  Shame on you.  You disgust me and I hate you.
Sincerely,
yourself.