I am the middle of 5 children. Smack dab in the middle. I get so lonely because I am 4 years older than my younger brother, and 8 years older than my little sister, I'm 4 years younger than one of my older sisters, and I'm 6 years younger than the other one. One of my older sisters is constantly getting far more attention than the rest of us, she gets to go out with my parents, or just get quality time with one parent simply because she wants to. If I were to ask my mom or dad to go out- even just with a friend- even if I had a ride- they still would probably keep me home. My little siblings are spoiled rotten, and my older sister is constantly just going through another difficultu, like, what the heck? On the other hand, if I whine, slack, get angry it's like I'm not a teen and I have to be PERFECT. I even get yelled at, and the "you disappoint me" speech when I read (extra-curricular reading) a lot, which to escape constant bullying, and sadness, I tend to binge read a lot. Like 2-4 novels in one week. But enough about that. Honestly I am so sick of the way people treat me. Especially when people say "just because you have no one to talk to, doesn't mean you can be depressed." Let me get one thing straight! Depression is real, it's a killer, and it can attack ANYONE at ANY time. "Middle child syndrome" may be a hoax, or at least when people say it only effects middle children, or that it attacks every single middle child. "Middle child syndrome" is real. It is another name for chronic depression due to being lonely. Being lonely is going to usually cause depression. Sometimes when you're lonely for a long time- not the type of loneliness that you choose, it's the type of loneliness that just happens, you grow accustomed to it and depression sets in, and then you're stuck. When you're stuck and depressed you get REALLY good, and I mean REALLYYYY good at faking your happiness. Most of those people who try to fake happiness are so obvious that it's very clear that they're just big attention seekers, but often the ones who need the most help are the attention seekers, they need a big fat reality check. I was a person who hated when people faked faking just for attention. I don't understand why there are happy people faking being depressed, faking being happy when they're already happy just to get a little attention, and not even the good kind! I can't stand when people do that. But enough about that! This is about "MCS". So in my opinion, "Middle Child Syndrome" is legit. I believe everyone feels very sad in a lifetime, I do not, however, believe that everyone experiences depression in their lifetime, it doesn't just happen. But I believe "MCS" is just another form of depression. I don't think that "middle child syndrome" itself is the correct name for it, but the symptoms are that of those similar to depression. So, in conclusion, "MCS" in my opinion is not a hoax, just an incorrect name. And if you feel as though you are suffering from "MCS" or depression there are multiple hotlines, chatrooms, and support groups for depression, and since "MCS" is a form of depression, so many people will be able to relate and help you. Never keep a cry for help on the inside, no one can hear that, scream for help if you need to, and in the end you will make it.
XOXO
Love you guys!
-Morgan
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